I don't love you

People say relationships are easy if their with the right person. I don't know much about these things . . . well I know a bit. I have a person who I think has to be as right of a person for me as you can get. He's definitely unique, you just have to look at his hair and clothes and you'll see that loud and clear! He's kind of aggressive (to other people) and I'm pretty sure he's an alcoholic (he told his mates he was going out with me by going up to a lam post when he was drunk and saying "i love you" and so his mates asked him who he loved etc. so on so forth) and he's not always so sure about how he feels. He's not perfect. I don't want perfect. I want real. And he's definitley real, that's for sure. And he cares about me, he always tries to cheer me up when I'm upset and he listens when I talk and he shows off about me and sticks up for me. He tells me things that only the two of us know. He's one of my favourite people. He makes me want to be a better person and I make him want to be better too. But lately things have been less than smooth sailing. He got arrested last Saturday and spent the night in a cell for Drunk and Disorderly (not first time). And there was this business with a little test and shallowness and now I don't know if I should just call it quits with him or hang on tighter than ever. I just don't want to look back on it in ten years and call myself an idiot. I don't know what to do and my friends are really sick of the sound of his name and are begging me to break it off and just let go but I don't want to wake up and remember my huge mistake in the morning. So I decided to see how the next few weeks work out . . . maybe then it'll be clearer.

I hope